WHO YOU SHOULD LOVE AFTER LOSS

WHO YOU SHOULD LOVE AFTER LOSS It’s lonely. In fact, lonely is not a strong enough word to grasp the depth of aloneness that becomes your life after loss. You are desperately and hopelessly alone regardless of how many people surround you, love you, care about you. You can be in the center of a room that is filled with …

YOU SHOULD STAY

YOU SHOULD STAY When tragedy happens everyone runs to be by your side. The beauty of human nature in the midst of unthinkable circumstances can be truly inspiring, and profoundly encouraging. You hear every kind, sincere and beautiful promise possible by people who believe in everything they say. “I promise to help you on the hard days. I promise to …

I CAN’T FIX THIS

I CAN’T FIX THIS My son was 13 months when he lost his father. He holds no memories of his daddy and never asks questions or brings him up. He is a happy, well-adjusted, smart, and lovable five years old. He just also happens to be a kid who’s dad died way too young. Truth be told, I don’t worry …

THE GLASS HOUSE OF GRIEF

THE GLASS HOUSE OF GRIEF Welcome to widowhood. I’m giving you fair warning – this journey will be perhaps the crappiest you ever endure. This journey is difficult regardless of your kind of loss. It may have come as a shock; it may have been expected, regardless of your circumstances it is beyond painful. No words do the pain any …

MEASURING THE PAIN…DEATH AND DIVORCE.

MEASURING THE PAIN…DEATH AND DIVORCE. Please stop….I beg of everyone. A few weeks after my late husband passed away was my first preview into the competitive world of, “what’s worse, death or divorce?” and it made me infuriated. Here I was, a newly grieving widow, dealing with the end of life stuff, shock, two tiny children and tons of grief …

LOVING BEYOND LOSS

LOVING BEYOND LOSS I would like to start this blog post by saying that this is not a blog saying that you MUST love again post loss. This is a blog post about how you CAN love again. Happiness is not tied to being in a romantic relationship, but if you do decide that a new relationship is in your …

10 REGRETS OF A YOUNG WIDOWED MOM

10 REGRETS OF A YOUNG WIDOWED MOM It’s so easy to look back on my past and see all the things I could have done differently/better. My life has always been blessed, but it took the death of my 37-year-old husband to realize how blessed my life was. At the time of Mitch’s accident, my young children were just 1 …

THE LAST NIGHT….

THE LAST NIGHT…. October 8, 2009 I arrived home from a business trip to Florida like I had so many times before. My corporate job kept me busy, traveling, and kept me very distracted. I walked up the busy terminal and through security at the Phoenix airport and on the other side was my husband and my baby girl with …

LIVING WITH DAMAGE

LIVING WITH DAMAGE My life turned upside down without a moment’s notice on October 9th, 2009. The day, and the moments surrounding that period of my life are forever seared into my mind and have left permanent imprints on my soul. I remember moments of almost foreshadowing before the accident. I remember the entire year hearing a voice deep inside …

THANKSGIVING 2011 – LIVING AGAIN BEYOND LOSS

THANKSGIVING 2011 – LIVING AGAIN BEYOND LOSS The start of 2011 was a pivotal turning point in my life post loss. I was emotionally drained and tired of living life as a grieving widow. I remember writing that I was sick and tired of grieving which was probably not the politically correct thing to say but my reality just the …