AFTER THE KISS

AFTER THE KISS He kissed me softly and as he did, I tried to quiet my mind and stop the noise. I tried to live in the moment and embrace this new page in my story without expectation and without concern for what it meant to my past and for my present. I tried to enjoy that split second and …

10 REGRETS OF A YOUNG WIDOWED MOM

10 REGRETS OF A YOUNG WIDOWED MOM It’s so easy to look back on my past and see all the things I could have done differently/better. My life has always been blessed, but it took the death of my 37-year-old husband to realize how blessed my life was. At the time of Mitch’s accident, my young children were just 1 …

SIGNS FROM DADDY

SIGNS FROM DADDY Before I lost my husband I never gave much thought to signs from our loved ones. I guess its just one of those things that you do not consider until it becomes relevant to you. I grew up in a very religious environment and besides the traditional awareness I had no opinion one way or the other. …

A WIDOW DATING…THE LAST FIRST KISS

A WIDOW DATING…THE LAST FIRST KISS We met again, and again, and again. There were coffees, lunches, and hikes that all seemed to flow more smoothly than the last. He seemed confident in what he was looking for in a woman, and I could tell by the look in his eyes that I held all of the qualities he had …

BROWN EYED BOY

BROWN EYED BOY My kids go to school about a mile from where my husband’s plane went down. It’s an excellent school with a fantastic reputation, but for a few moments after Addy got a spot on the waiting list I had reservations about going there simply due to proximity. The airport is a busy one with 2 flight schools …

THE LAST NIGHT….

THE LAST NIGHT…. October 8, 2009 I arrived home from a business trip to Florida like I had so many times before. My corporate job kept me busy, traveling, and kept me very distracted. I walked up the busy terminal and through security at the Phoenix airport and on the other side was my husband and my baby girl with …

THE GIVING TREE

THE GIVING TREE We all have a tree that is bearing its fruit, giving us life, shading us from the elements. The question is, will you see the value of your tree before it’s just a stump in the forest?

IN REMEMBRANCE OF 9/11

IN REMEMBRANCE OF 9/11 Like most others, I remember the events of 9/11 like it was yesterday. I remember seeing the terror unfold and the lives lost, and the hero’s going into the buildings and some never coming out. I remember the sadness I felt for those personally affected, and I remember wondering how they could ever survive such loss. …

PARALLEL UNIVERSE AND THE GIFTS OF GRIEF

PARALLEL UNIVERSE AND THE GIFTS OF GRIEF Written in 2014 this post looks back at the feelings I had as I morphed from one world to another. An important process in the grief journey. For the most part, I have become accustomed to my new life post loss. Life never goes back to what it was before, but I have …

BEING THE WHITE ELEPHANT

BEING THE WHITE ELEPHANT Written by Michelle shortly after her loss in 2009. To this day I can feel uncomfortable in a room full of people that love me. My life is blessed in ways I can not even put it into words, but as a widow, I can feel out of place in lots of situations…but especially around friends …