IN REMEMBRANCE OF 9/11

IN REMEMBRANCE OF 9/11 Like most others, I remember the events of 9/11 like it was yesterday. I remember seeing the terror unfold and the lives lost, and the hero’s going into the buildings and some never coming out. I remember the sadness I felt for those personally affected, and I remember wondering how they could ever survive such loss. …

PARALLEL UNIVERSE AND THE GIFTS OF GRIEF

PARALLEL UNIVERSE AND THE GIFTS OF GRIEF Written in 2014 this post looks back at the feelings I had as I morphed from one world to another. An important process in the grief journey. For the most part, I have become accustomed to my new life post loss. Life never goes back to what it was before, but I have …

BEING THE WHITE ELEPHANT

BEING THE WHITE ELEPHANT Written by Michelle shortly after her loss in 2009. To this day I can feel uncomfortable in a room full of people that love me. My life is blessed in ways I can not even put it into words, but as a widow, I can feel out of place in lots of situations…but especially around friends …

BOSTON HEARTBREAK

BOSTON HEARTBREAK There will always be moments in a lifetime when we will remember where we were at the time we heard the devastating news. Guest writer and veteran runner, R.J. Lott shares his emotional processing after the devastating Boston Marathon bombing.

LIVING WITH DAMAGE

LIVING WITH DAMAGE My life turned upside down without a moment’s notice on October 9th, 2009. The day, and the moments surrounding that period of my life are forever seared into my mind and have left permanent imprints on my soul. I remember moments of almost foreshadowing before the accident. I remember the entire year hearing a voice deep inside …

RUNNING FROM GRIEF

RUNNING FROM GRIEF Michelle often looks back at her various stages of grief and what she was writing at the time, it helps with her life perspective. Here is a blog post she wrote 1 month after she ran the San Diego Marathon in 2010.

FATHER’S DAY 2012

FATHER’S DAY 2012 Something I have vowed, since I lost Mitch, is that I will celebrate these days in his honor. My husband LOVED life and he loved to explore, so I’ve dedicated my life to honoring his way of viewing this earth while I am here. Today I went to his very favorite spot in Sedona and hiked close …

THANKSGIVING 2011 – LIVING AGAIN BEYOND LOSS

THANKSGIVING 2011 – LIVING AGAIN BEYOND LOSS The start of 2011 was a pivotal turning point in my life post loss. I was emotionally drained and tired of living life as a grieving widow. I remember writing that I was sick and tired of grieving which was probably not the politically correct thing to say but my reality just the …

FINDING REASONS TO GIVE THANKS

FINDING REASONS TO GIVE THANKS A look back at Michelle’s Second Thanksgiving Post Loss Surrounded by friends and family today feeling overwhelmed with emotions both good and bad, cherishing every second with so many wonderful people yet missing the one person who always completed me. I’m not done grieving, not by a long shot. Standing talking to one of my …

NIGHTCLUB WIDOW

NIGHTCLUB WIDOW  ACCEPTANCE I remember being desperate for adult conversation after I lost my husband. He was my best friend and the loneliness was breathtaking. Who I was able to have a conversation with was up for debate after his death. Some people made me feel even more lonely because their presence reminded me of what I was missing. Some …